While On The Path

In the past few years, due to a series of unexpected tragedies, several of my family members died, leaving me doubting the meaning of my life, depressed and uprooted. Sometimes, I even foolishly and ignorantly considered taking my life in order to escape. My days were filled with tears. One of Master's disciples lived downstairs and often came to comfort me, bringing me spiritual food -- The Key Of Immediate Enlightenment -- which unlocked the chains around my heart. Master's teachings are just like a church bell; every word and every sentence unraveled the puzzles in my heart.

After reading Master's book, I immediately decided to keep a vegetarian diet, hoping to receive initiation from Her. There were several times when I saw Master's transformation body in my dreams, coming to comfort my depressed soul. At that time, I did not realize what a transformation body was but after initiation, I knew. I realized that Master was already supporting me invisibly during that difficult part of life's journey.

I did not receive initiation in my own country. Perhaps my time had not yet come. But when I went overseas, I wrote to Master and asked if I could be initiated soon. Upon receiving the letter, She sent a Quan Yin messenger to initiate me, fulfilling my deepest wish.

Through the initiation, I knew very deeply that Master had taken over my karma and that of my five generations. Every time I think of the suffering that Master has taken on for sentient beings, my eyes fill with tears.

I truly thank Master for letting me know what is meant by "sickness and suffering is merit". If I had never experienced this pain, I fear that I would never have thought of practicing, not to mention searching for a Master and the Truth.

Now, I am still working as usual in my original post. However, there is no more worries visible on my face. I can freely speak and laugh. If my colleagues knew of my upheavals in the past, they would certainly be surprised: How come suddenly, just like turning over a new leaf, the whole person has totally changed to another one? I become more active, optimistic, confident and easily satisfied. These are all due to the grace of Master. At the same time, this is also a proof of 'immediate enlightenment, liberation in one lifetime' in the method as transmitted by Master.

Practicing the supreme Quan Yin Method is truly like what the scriptures have described, and what Master has said, "At every moment of each day, one learns lessons from within and without." Unfortunately, I have not been able to concentrate inwardly at all times to receive these precious teachings; I feel very regretful and ashamed. At the same time, I feel ineffable gratitude towards Master since it is She who guides me to practice diligently everyday. Even though up to now I have been unsuccessful one time after another, I still continue to struggle. However, ever since I have learned to concentrate on my wisdom eye, I have realized my true Self and have some deep understandings and feelings.

For a period of time, I felt that it was very tiring to speak, to the extent that speaking several sentences for me was as exhausting as moving dozens of big stones. Sometimes my mouth was so uncooperative that it refused to open to speak. If I had to speak, I felt like it was a great suffering to do so; because I didn't feel like talking. If I forced myself to answer, it would be disjointed, making myself very tired and others very uncomfortable. This unwillingness to speak caused some misunderstandings and yet was hard to explain. It is because I was attentively trying to concentrate inwardly, and then suddenly had to switch from my wisdom eye to a person's topic; this sudden switch caused me great suffering. Compare this to Master when She gives lectures and chats with us, what a giant gap She has to undergo! However, She does it with ease; what great compassion and love! What a noble mission it is to help the needy and relieve the distressed! Her love is as immense as the universe. Compared to Her, how can I complain? I can only practice more and more diligently to repay Her magnanimous grace.

Contrastingly, whenever I need to communicate with fellow practitioners concerning our work, I feel very relaxed -- as easy as talking to myself. A little hint here, a little pointer there and we can understand each other. There is no language to describe this exactly; it just feels right with fellow practitioners at that moment. We can understand each other using only a few words. Such conversation or "communication" is really smooth and easy.

It's also very interesting when I talk to people who have affinity with Master. My mouth spontaneously and unceasingly begins to talk, even my brain fails to respond sometimes. But the outcome of the lively, witty metaphors and anecdotes even amazes myself! However, when my ego pops out, at that moment the inspiration immediately disappears, leaving my brain blank; the listeners can only shake their heads. If I continue to talk, I start to contradict my previous reasoning and they begin to argue with me. Then I panic, causing further confusion and discrepancy. Finally, I dare not continue to talk anymore.

After several lessons, I came to realize that the ego is our greatest enemy. Without the blessings from the supreme power, it is very difficult to overcome the ego. Moreover, without a Master who teaches a method of connecting with the supreme power, we would simply be deceiving ourselves, as well as others, into thinking that we have "no ego," that we "devote ourselves selflessly". In fact, it is at this moment that our ego is greatest. Master sometimes gives lectures lasting several hours or an entire evening, yet Her lectures are accommodating, tactful and flawless. If the lectures are not from the supreme wisdom and the pure, egoless God, where else do they come from?

We are the God also, but the times we behave like a God are too few and too short -- just several minutes or seconds -- then our ego pops out and hinders God, like a thick wall separating the universe into individual small rooms. Then we sit in our small room thinking that we are safe. It is like a frog at the bottom of the well; from there it is hard to get a glimpse at the wonders of the universe. If only we could break through the barrier of the ego and reunite with the Truth, then everything would be natural and perfect.