By Fellow Initiate Cheng, Taipei, Formosa

I don't know if my yearning and longing for Master is more than others, but I do know that even just the tiniest bit of longing would be with all my heart.

During the three-day retreat, after the barbecue and the fireworks, when Master was giving a talk in the Forest Meditation Hall, She suddenly asked, "You people sitting in the front, do you have any special merits to be able to sit in the front?"

"Because we love Master the most!" "Because we miss Master the most!" were the answers from some of the excited fellow initiates. Some said that there happened to be empty spaces in the front. Master said with a smile, "How could there be such a 'happened-to-be' thing."

Sitting in the front row and 'happened to be' there, two days in a row. I saw Master's eyes gazing at my face. I wanted to tell Her loudly, "Because in the many nights of missing You, I had thought of You until I cried... Those countless thoughts and longings closely surrounded me..." But I did not have the courage.

Suddenly, I understood! My shyness is because I do not think highly of my love, thinking that my love is of no value even though God Almighty has already extended His hand to embrace me! In fact, Master understands my utmost longing for true love and to be loved. Yet because I lack the self-confidence I have shut myself off from the sea of love. It is not that Master has forgotten me, but my inferiority complex has refused Master.

Will Master still love me, who has fallen down on the spiritual path? Will Master still love me, who has been stuck in the mundane world and unawakened? If the whole world has deserted me, will Master still love me? Yes! Yes! No matter what I may have been like, Master's love has never been a bit less! In Master's heart, I am the most valuable! From the beginning until the end, I am Her treasure.

I finally understood, I also, like the others, possess the deepest love of God Almighty. In His eyes, everyone is precious. Between Master and I, there is no one else...

The love in the mundane world is ever changing. It hurts more often than it heals, making people feel terrified, unsettled and heavily burdened. Master's love is always cleansing the dust in our hearts in visible and invisible ways, healing the numerous wounds and making life fresher and more lively each day. Confidence has been injected into my soul. I am no longer worried about loss or gain and I no longer belittle my own worth.

Master! Now I finally have the courage to pour out all my sincerity, love and admiration. Please stay a while and listen to the sounds of bliss beginning to race deep in my soul like the roars of the surging waves hitting the shores and like the turbulent sounds of the deep-lying underground volcanos.

Master! I am deeply enjoying our holy love!