Dearest Master,
I miss You so much! You are the "Mother of my soul"! I am very grateful to Master as Her transformation body granted me initiation. I saw, with my wisdom eye, Master's transformation body sitting in front of me, Her forehead glowing with golden light. Knowing that Master's transformation body would always be within to take care of me, I felt so elated. On that day, a brand new page unfolded in my life. I began walking along a new path on my life's journey. Oh! Master! You have eliminated my deep-rooted ignorance and shed light upon my soul. I shall follow Your teachings and footsteps by practicing the Quan Yin Method in order to return to the source of life sooner, the home of all souls.
Many years ago, I already had thoughts of not wanting to return to this world in my next life, because I felt that being human was very tiresome. It was very agonizing to live in a world full of dishonesty and distrust. Although I had a hard-working and understanding husband, smart and obedient children, and faithful friends, deep down in my heart, I still felt extremely empty and lonely. In the silence of the night, I would often ask myself, "Why did I come to this world? What is the purpose of being alive?" The agony and sorrow of being human always surrounded me.
A short while ago, a relative of mine from Madrid accompanied a Quan Yin messenger to Valencia to spread Master's teachings and plant seeds of enlightenment. This stirred us inside a very strong response. Afterwards, I told the Quan Yin messenger, "I love Master, but I still can't commit myself to a full and lifelong vegetarian diet. After a few more years, I will definitely become vegetarian and follow Master's path." The Quan Yin messenger told me in all sincerity, "The world is very ephemeral and life is even more so. How do you know if you will still be alive today or tomorrow?" These words prompted me to do some profound thinking.
That afternoon, I had a vegetarian meal at my sister's house. In truth, I wasn't interested in vegetarian food at all. My elder sister said, "You had better eat vegetarian food for the whole day today. It will be good for you. I want to tell you that the Supreme Master Ching Hai is truly a living Buddha, a living Bodhisattva... the kind you may meet only once in thousands years." That night after I went hame, I ate meat immediately. I found that each piece of meat tasted bitter. My stomach felt swollen and oppressed, and my body became itchy all over. When I went to bed to sleep, I heard Master's loud and clear voice singing above my head "Praise the Buddha". A few days later, I told myself, "You want to be liberated from life and death, yet, you also want to continue to eat fish and meat. You can't have both. Forget it! Just be a vegetarian!"
In order not to allow myself any chance to change my mind, I immediately phoned my sister and the Quan Yin messenger in Madrid to inform them about my decision to become vegetarian. That night, I started reading Master's sample booklet. I was so fascinated and even intoxicated by it. By the time I finished another book, it was the next morning. I cancelled all outings and social events and stayed at home. During the next month, I carefully finished reading more than ten of Master's books, and watched dozens of video tapes. Master's exceptional teachings were like a spring breeze, cleansing layers of dirt accumulated for many lives. They liberated me from the troubled and anxious feelings of living in this world, answered all my questions, and removed doubts and obstructions about eternal liberation. I became peaceful and filled with infinite joy.
My longing for initiation became more and more earnest. Day and night, I would pray to the Inner Master to let me receive initiation as soon as possible. I often received blessings from Master as I practiced the Convenient Method each day. My feelings of appreciation and joy could not be expressed in words.
A few months later, the Quan Yin messenger gave us the initiation forms to fill out. I was very excited. I felt that I would finally get a chance to join the circle of sages. This feeling was new to me. I almost couldn't believe it would come true. I prayed to the Inner Master again and again, all the time. Shortly, I received an inner response, "You may be initiated." I almost jumped out of bed in ecstasy in anticipation of my formal initiation! Soon after, I really received my formal initiation.
Oh! Master! You are my Enlightened Master for all eternity!